Update

So Dr. apt. did not go as I pictured yesterday. Now, you have to understand my Dr. a little to understand why I was so thrown off. My Dr. is amazing. He is so laid back and makes you feel so at ease and as if you are special and the only pregnant person he is taking care of. We love this guy. However, yesterday he was not so laid back. He feels that my bp is still not stable and so to stress how serious this is he explained to me that bp is something not to fool with and if left untreated or not taken seriously it can be fatal for mom and baby. So instantly my eyes welled with tears and fear. He explained that will not happen because we have caught it early and he is going to be extra precautious and safe with me. He did explain that it is early for this to happen and they prefer it to happen after 30 weeks because then it is a matter of just a few weeks on bed rest then delivering the baby early.

It turns out I may have gestational hypertension which basically means my bp is not stable and it could turn into preeclampsia if not treated and most likely I will have to go on some sort of bed rest and most people with this deliver their babies early. The link above explains it to much greater detail. Any good news? I know, I was searching for it too. He said he is not going to put me on bed rest yet, but it could be at any time. He also said we are going to become best friends because I will be seeing him a lot. Which I did say I love the guy, but I am not sure if want to see him as much as he is thinking! Right now they are trying to figure out if I have high bp now just because or if I am heading into preeclampsia. So they took more blood, I have to do a 24 hr urine sample (peeing into a huge tub will be so fun all day Sunday) and they started me on bp meds. I go back in to see him Tuesday to discuss the next steps and we have an ultrasound next Friday (which may be the only perk).

However, I of course got onto the internet and read somethings that probably raised my bp even more, which was not a wise decision. Most babies with this condition are born early and are small (worried), some can have lung deficiencies (worried), some can have other problems (worried) and mothers often have to have c-sections (worried). Now, that was just the internet talking. Luckily my mom has been calling me with real stories of people that had this and all turned out fine. Thank you mom! But if you know me, I am a natural worrier. I worry about feelings of people I do not know, I worry about situations I know and do not know and I just worry. It is what I do. So I have been really worked up worried about this baby. I am so terrified something will be wrong with him or her and it is all my fault.

Luckily I have an amazing husband who has been doing everything and anything to keep my mind stress free and my dad just happened to surprise me and stop into town for the weekend so he has been on my case to lay down, relax and stop worrying. So I have a great support team..I just need to listen to them! So if you need me you know where to find me this weekend...the couch.

Next week will be a long week but I am hopeful it will all be okay. I was hoping all our problems would have ended with us just trying to get pregnant..and I am still hopeful they will. Please keep baby B in your prayers that everything is okay and everything will turn out okay next week.